1/30/12 07:25 pm - sazza5989 - Where to go from here?
So I came out of a massively serious relationship just under a year ago, we were together for over 3 years, and i haven't really been looking to get in to anything at the moment. However i met this really nice guy a couple of months ago and we have been seeing each other regulary, in a couple of weeks it would be 3 months since we started. But i keep talking myself out of liking him and wanting anything to do with him. I like hanging out with him and being with him it just a part of me feels that i'm not ready and perhaps i shouldn't let myself get too comfortable as it won't work out as we're at different stages in our lives, i'm also going travelling for a couple of months in the summer and don't really want the restrictions of being in a relationship so i can mope about missing someone rather than fully enjoy myself and learn about myself. But another part of me just thinks this guy is pretty amazing, he makes me smile and laugh so much, i feel completley and utterly safe when im with him but i can't seem to fully let go and just give myself totally to him. (does this even make sense?)
On another note what makes it worse is that he's also getting out of a serious relationship and that freaks me out even more as i'm selfishly being like "im trying to deal with my own stuff yet alone being messed about by some guy who can't figure out his feeings- suppose that sounds really hippocriticial and it's probably the best solution for me right now.
I just don't know what to do really.